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A Momentary State of Panic

For some obscure reason, yesterday I experienced a momentary state of panic. My head got in the way. Thoughts of “I can’t do this” and “I’ll never make it” circulated in my brain. The rising feeling of very active butterflies started in my stomach, and I felt rather scared. I guess this is a very normal feeling when preparing for an event that is a total unknown. Or not?

Last weekend I went for my long run as usual on Sunday morning. I had a really good run that day, and felt strong at the end, energised even. It was 19K and I did it in 2:01:01. Slower than a race time, but that is the way to do it apparently, run slow on the long runs. On Tuesday I then went out and did a 13K tempo run, okay I thought, week’s going well here, still feeling good, got home, sat down to enter the time and distance into my running programme and realised that if I continued with what I set myself as a training schedule I would be doing waaaaaay to much mileage for the week. So the rest of this past week has been very cruisy, just a few 5K runs.

This morning was one of those 5K days, on the schedule as an easy run as I have a long one again tomorrow. Now, I have just read an article in the latest Runner’s World magazine that was talking about speed and how a lot of runners do their easy runs too fast. I happen to be one of those runners, always in a hurry, so I thought “today I go slowly”. Oh my goodness! I ended up more exhausted from that run than I felt after my long run on Sunday, and I think it was from the sheer mental exhaustion of constantly making myself slow down and stick to the easy pace. The interesting thing is that my time was not much more on paper, just felt a lot longer on foot. Lessons learnt!

In case you’re interested here’s the link to the running log download, it’s a great tool:


Ponder while running….

Running gives me time to think. Random thoughts pop into my head, kind of like meditation. I suppose it’s my “me” time. Today was no different, although little body niggles were distracting me from the quieter spaces of my mind. First it was my hip, then the other one, felt like someone was sticking tiny little pins into them…and I had only been going for one minute! Then my knee felt niggly, then my heel. Ridiculous really, I think it’s just nerves about tackling this marathon.

Needless to say, I kept on running and ended up having quite a fine time, I had lots of energy, the niggles stopped, I even laughed when I stepped in the muddiest puddle and totally soaked my shoe and sock….the rain keeps coming….

Today I ran around the estuary, you can read about it here:
I have no idea how slowly the person they measured for the estimated time was though. I ran it plus a bit more in just under an hour (nearly 10K)

Back again soon……

It’s raining…it’s pouring….

Woke up this morning to a deluge! Or rather, spent the whole night listening to the deluge hit our roof! It’s been pouring with rain all night and finally this morning at 5.45am I gave up and got up. besides, my stomach was growling as well.

First thought….can’t run in this. Some rain is okay, but this is crazy! I do have to do my long run today, so I may have to out later. What shall I eat? Can’t make a decision, half asleep and my whole plan has just been thrown out the window (into a puddle). Now, all this is spinning around in my head and I am standing in front of the espresso machine staring at it and not getting on with anything. Quite amusing really.

The trouble is, when training for any long distance race, half, full or dare you try it (I won’t be!) any longer distance, the one workout you cannot afford to miss is the long run. So sometime today, I am going to have to get out there and do it….17km. Now there is a gym up the road from us, and for $10 I can go there and get on a treadmill and bore myself silly looking at the wall for 1hr45min, but I can’t bring myself to stoop to those levels. Don’t get me wrong, treadmill training can be very useful, just really boring for a long run. It may yet come to that today as to get my run in before dark, the latest I can go out would be around 3.30pm and if it is still pelting down then, I shall turn left out of our road instead of right and head up the road to the gym.

Busy, busy, busy…

It’s been a crazy lot of weeks and I have been at my computer but nowhere near updating my running escapades. Just been too busy, too tired at night and in a “can’t be fuzzed” mood. Not sure where that’s come from, but there it is.

Interestingly though, that mood has coincided with a real doubt as to whether I can do this marathon. All sorts of questions have popped into my head…can my body handle it? Can my brain handle it? How will I ever make the distance? Things are hurting now, how can I possibly do 42.2K? All these questions have been buzzing around in my head while I have been running, which has made me more tired and not allowed me to enjoy my runs very much.

Last weekend I did my longest run ever, 22K in the howling wind. For about 90% of the time I either had a head wind or a cross wind and it felt like I was running as slow as a snail. A friend of mine happened to see me that day and said the look on my face was far from one or enjoyment and I must agree, I was not enjoying the experience at all. I ended that run wondering even more if I would ever run this race, especially when in the final 10 minutes it bucketed down with rain and drenching me that badly that my shoes were squishing.

However, this experience taught me a lesson….no matter how bad something feels, you always feel better when it is done, and I decided then and there that I have been putting far too much pressure on myself to perform perfectly, and re-jigged my entire training programme from now forward. Consequently I really enjoyed my run today, even though it took in four reasonably steep hills. I felt strong and alive as I was running and it felt really good to be back with that feeling.

So that’s it in a nutshell…

Oh! And I have made a commitment now to update my rabbitings on at least twice a week, so watch this space!

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